One week from today
September 24, 2013
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A week from today, my son will have his chest reconstruction surgery (aka “top” surgery).
The effects of the testosterone injections that he began in April are starting to become more evident: his voice is deeper and more full, his face is sharper, and his shoulders and upper arms are more wide and prominent. With these changes and his surgery date fast approaching, something is happening that has never happened before — he is talking about his future.
I never realized that i hadn’t heard him talk about himself as an adult until i heard it for the first time. When he was younger, the only thing he ever said was that he never wanted to have a baby. Recently, in the most casual way, he mentioned that he is secretly going to be “the favorite dad” and i realized i was hearing something brand new.
In the last few weeks he has talked about his future so frequently and so positively and so differently than ever before that i am finding it difficult not to break into tears each time. When i think of him being on suicide watch just earlier this year, and now to be at this point…i am just so grateful we are here.
Along with his surgery comes the letter we need to get his gender changed on his legal documents in our state. Then he can really begin to more forward with his life. It feels like we are turning a corner. Thanks for walking with us.